california dreaming

I had this dream once.

I was struck by lightening. I thought it was a fairy. The little ball of light. I was standing out back of my parents old house. The one I grew up in. I saw it out in the horizon while I was thinking of him. Always him. Always scanning the horizon as if he would come back. So I made a wish. I thought the little fairy was there to grant me my wish. For a split second I believed it would come true because everything felt prickly, like static. I heard a noise like sizzling. I smelled death and my insides positively boiled. I came. I tried to scream, I knew my body wouldn't be able to hold it all. I imploded.

I woke up tangled in soaked sheets, the scream a cold stone in my mouth.

Since then I can't tell where the dream ends and reality begins.