top five things i hate about you you you you you

5.) The way you smell.

It's primal. When you get close to me.... when you orbit my moon... your scent invades my space and I am yours. There is a physical reaction I have to you. It starts with the shakes. And if I'm not careful it ends in little deaths.

4.) The way you touch me.

It's electric. I don't even have to see you to know it's you. If I lost my sense of smell I would know your touch at the point of contact. The way you walk up quietly behind me and your hand hovers over the back of my neck and hesitates for only a moment, before extending yourself to me. Your skin on mine for as long as you can stand it before retreating into yourself again. A blue light. A crackle. The hair on the back of my neck stands erect and dances. A sharp intake of breathe. No matter how much I want you to stay you always run away leaving electrical scars on my skin.

3.) The things you say.

How you tell me it has always been and always will be me. How you try to make me feel as though I'm the reason for your misery with your witty interjections. It's like Love in the Time of Cholera... only with a lot of Wuthering Heights thrown in... just for spice. The drunken phone calls... emails... text messages... pictures... so many ways to assault the system nowadays. To get under someones skin. To let them know just how much you are on their mind. The whispers of a lover are like small hits of your favorite poison. Before you know it you're addicted. Just another junkie.

2.) The way you always leave.

I don't like to be needy. I don't need anyone. Despite that. In spite of myself... it begins slowly... unnoticed... insidious... Before I know it. Before I recognize it. I expect it. I crave it. And before I know it. I have forgotten what I knew all along. Trapped. Fallen. Prey. I am cut open at your feet. And you leave. Again.

1.) The way you always come back.

When I'm whole. When I've regained my strength and know who I am again. When I have forgotten the pain. And the blood. And the tears. When my laugh comes easier than breathing. There you are. Again. Expecting nothing. Knowing how hard it is to say no. Go. Stay away. Surely. Slowly. Unnoticed. Insidious. Bastard.


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"... even though i met you only recently, i find myself falling in love with you, i don't know quite how to put this decently, but what's the chance that you can love me too? , who who who who who, has made my dreams come true? and turned my gray sky blue, why its you you you you you..."
-The 6ths